hewillloveitaway asked: "I love your quote or whatever it's called! Haha"
Oh thank you! I guess you could call it that, haha. Just one of my random thoughts swirling around in my head…
the problem with reading a good book is that you want to finish the book but you don’t want to finish the book
This has always been my problem.
So, we’ve established that the foundation of real love is God. That’s signed, sealed, and delivered.
Now the next step is this: HOW do we ALLOW ourselves to LET God be our FIRST love.
Well, let’s be honest here. If there was a “How-To” book that applied to everyone in every situation in Christ, that person would be a multi-trillionaire by now. So, no, there’s no “How-To” in this case. You have to create your own “How-To”.
Ask yourself, what’s holding me back from allowing God to love me. Is it doubt? Is it fear? Lack of faith or trust? Do you even know HOW MUCH God desires YOU personally?
In the book I’ve been reading, Spoken For, for those who didn’t read my last post, I’ve learned how much I’m really desired by God…but also how LITTLE I truly desired HIM!
Alyssa Joy Bethke’s story, at mid-20, almost directly mirrors mine, minus the being in a previous relationship bit. I’ve never been in a REAL relationship, being only 16 (and 3/4!) myself, but I desire it more than anything in my life.
Notice, I said more than ANYTHING.
You see, what Alyssa and I both struggled with is idolism. We both put the idea of a perfect, Godly relationship/marriage on a pedestal. We both longed so deeply for that true love that you hear about from your elders and in storybooks. We both wanted the white dress and the cake and pictures and vows and exotic honeymoon and wedding speeches…
..but where does that leave God? What about what He wants? What about that first relationship? Where does He fit?
Through this revelation, I’ve found myself back on the Potter’s wheel, trying to remind myself of my first and only love. You see, I’ve told myself I want one boyfriend and then I want to be married, and until that happens, I’m closing myself off to all love. I don’t want fake, I want real, true love.
..so why am I searching? I’ve had it my whole life!
You see, where we often fail in our pursuit of love and relationships is that we forget who originally loved and wanted us so much, He sent His only son to DIE a BRUTAL, AGONIZING death, just so we can live with Him forever.
For us. The ones who constantly reject Him and put Him on the back-burner. The ones who deny Him daily and doubt Him continuously.
And yet, He still loves us.
WHY?!?!!?! Why ME?
So, though I don’t know why He loves me, I can at least put forth the effort to love Him back. I can put Him first. I can spend time with Him. I can share Him with others. I can put my full trust in Him.
And you know the great thing? He realizes that we STILL want that love story with another person. And He will give us that. In HIS timing.
So I can rest in the fact that until that time in my life, I’m God’s and He is mine.
And even after my husband finds me, I’ll still be His. His Chosen One. His Peculiar Treasure.